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Well, a day has come that I knew would arrive, but was trying not to think about. Julianna has fallen behind grade level in her reading. š Yesterday we had our second home visit of her second gradeĀ year. (Her elementary school does these in place of parent-teacher conferences.) Iām not complaining about Juliannaās shift in academic statusāI knew it was going to happen eventuallyābut thereās bound to be a pang, you know?
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It is ādecodingā that is holding her back, as always. In other words, reading comprehension. There is a disconnect in her brain between the words and their meaningāitās the same cognitive leap that prevents her from āgettingā that a number stands for a concrete reality. We can do addition and subtraction, but we have to have countersānumber frames, pieces of candy, sticks drawn on a pageāin order to do it. The instant you take away the tactile, her ability to do the math is gone. She just looks blank.
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This is the same cognitive reality that has me making phone calls to our pastor to talk about First Communion interviews. She has some basic concepts down, but she canāt expand upon them. Sheās āgotā the idea that the bread and wine is the Body and Blood, because for the last several years weāve been whispering it to her every single week during the elevation. She can take pieces of paper with the parts of the Mass on them and put them in order, but if you ask her questions about the Mass? Blank. If you ask her what was the meal Jesus shared with his disciples the night before he died, or what Passover is? Blank. Iāve been trying to tell her the stories, but she canāt repeat them, and she certainly doesnāt connect them with reality. All that rich symbolic language? She canāt process that.
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Itās been interesting, because Nicholas wants to be involved in Juliannaās first Communion prep, and itās driving him crazy; he can spout all the answers Iām looking for. Last night I had to yell at him because he just wasnāt getting the fact that he couldnāt answer the questions FOR her, she needed to be able to process them herself. (We went through this with Alex a few years ago too.)
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One more Julianna story that Iāve been sitting on. She is in love with her own image. Her favorite thing is a mirror. When she gets off the bus, she simply canāt get past the big rear view, and the big side mirror sticking out, without admiring and giggling at her reflection. Itās become something of a running gag between me and the bus driver. One day, the driver said, āYou know, if you hooked up a mirror on a stand and put it in front of her, sheād probably move faster, ācuz sheād follow it around.ā
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Changing subjects; perhaps after some Julianna stories youāll be willing to humor me and read a little about writing? Iāve had an unbelievably productive few weeks. I finished revising/polishing my novel (although, inevitably, I have already begun to doubt my opening paragraphs) and entered it in a couple of contests. For the last week, though, Iāve been letting it sit and āmatureā before I start gearing up for the querying phase. The truth is, no book is ever āfinishedā until itās in print.
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In the interim Iāve been pounding away at writing music. Lately I am feeling incredibly affirmed about music writing. I have sent, I donāt knowā¦four or five liturgical submissions, and I am working on a commission for a local flutist. I talked to my music editor about edits on a collection of flute-piano pieces for Easter (to complement Come to the Manger). I wrote a new song altogether, and today I get to meet with another friend about another one. Yesterday I cleaned up my primary music folder on the desktop, and I discovered songs Iād forgotten Iād written. A few of them worth revisiting, most pretty much, um, not. Hereās the Facebook status I wrote on that:

Lent is halfway done. Howās it going for you?

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First Communion interviews? Yikes! It’s a sacrament not a job interview
Christian thought that was weird, too. Neither of us remember doing it when we were kids, but you know. You do what they tell you to do.
Lent seriously seems to be kicking me in the rear but maybe that’s not a bad thing?
Here’s a post reminder just for you, Jen. http://kathleenbasi.com/2015/02/18/the-fasting-isnt-the-most-important-thing/
On Fri, Mar 4, 2016 at 10:20 PM, Kathleen M. Basi wrote:
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I actually broke my fast today to have some chicken soup because I’m sick in bed and I needed the protein. Even Laura (who gave me the discipline for Lent this year) told me to just go ahead and eat what I needed to.
Abso-bloomin-lutely. Hugs.