Yes, but…

This is shaping up to be one of those weeks. The busy factor is stratospheric this week, with the addition of small faith group leader training (why did I volunteer to lead? Because I’m a sucker), auditions for the national anthem, and a garage sale this weekend. Mid-week, and virtually no spouse time, because at 9:15p.m. we have mountains of dishes to do. Naturally, this is when Nicholas decides to escalate his already-unreasonable two wakings a night up to three. A six-month-old, waking up three times at night. Children who refuse to nap at the same time. A four-year-old with an attitude, an inability to go to the bathroom without being told, and a knack for breaking everything he puts his hands on.

These are the days when I want to shake my fist at Heaven and say, What is up with this? Cut me a break, already!

I lie awake gnashing my teeth, seething with resentment because I couldn’t get my husband to wake up and take care of Julianna. And inside my head, the gentle voice of the Spirit nudges me. Cool it, Kate.  You’ve been getting up three times a night for almost a week now, and you’ve been functioning just fine, albeit kind of tired. Tomorrow you’ll have to do Grandma’s thing.

But it’s not fair! There’s so much to do tomorrow. Emails to return. Faith sharing group members to call. I just want to SLEEP!

Yes, and lying awake being pissy is just going to make you feel worse come morning. You get to choose how you handle this: with resentment, or with grace.

Can’t you just make Nicholas sleep through the night?

Maybe he’s teething. That’s what it was with Julianna.

Ugh, she finally gets all her teeth and starts sleeping, and now it’s him. Is it ever going to end?

Yes, Kate, someday your kids will all be grown up and out of the house. Now get your attitude in line.

All right, all right. Thank You that Christian did get up and pat Nicholas down. Even if he did have to get up and use the bathroom first, so I had to go in first so Julianna didn’t wake up too. I always go straight to the kids and just wait on the bathroom.

This is not a very good start, Kate.

All right, all right. Thank you that Christian was willing to take over, and didn’t complain.

Now: gratitude for Nicholas waking.

Okay, now that’s just going too far. There is nothing to be grateful about getting up three times a night!

Yes, but Nicholas is really cute.

Well, yes.

And he has an amazing laugh. It was five minutes’ of entertainment during leader training last night.

And he’s into everything, which is such an amazing thing to watch after how slowly everything has gone with Julianna. And sitting up!

And Alex is spreading his wings, making new friends, learning the school time routine, and loving every minute of his time there.

And someone else is doing 90% of the garage sale work.

And I have respite care this week.

And I’ve dropped four pounds. Yesterday I was actually at my prepregnancy weight. Woohoo!

Now you’re getting there.

And I’m excited about PEP-C…not that the blog readers know about that, but we’ll get to that in a few days…

And I’ve been making progress on my novel, and there was that promising email from Liguori.

And I had good lessons yesterday.

And I love those pictures of Nicholas…yawn…from the…front yard…

Zzzzzz…..